9.2.09
my heart just sank today, not once, twice but thrice
im sick of wearing a smile on my face now.
it's like a mini crisis for me now. I worry for u everyday, every minute and every second of my life. I really hope the blood test results will not be some bad news. i never thought that the heartache felt when someone dearest fell terribly ill could be this painful. it's like some beast trying to rip my ribcage apart and devour my heart. it's devastating. Do you know whenever i see you in pain, my heart breaks? U're now a totally different person now. I hope you'll recover real soon. I will pray whenever i can. I can't imagine my life without you. it'll be totally different. & pls remember, I love you.
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