27.11.07
Initially it was anger, followed by disappointment.. we agreed to wear the FBT shorts we bought at queenway on wed for cycling. U agreed to call tell me the details for cycling. What I knew was that we are going cycling this week. Other details I am not too sure of.. When I called Christina to inform her about the details of the job, wad shocked me was that u guys were there cycling. I was angry. That’s why I sounded so attitude over the phone. What saddened me most was the bo chup attitude that I received. No one bothered to tell me about the details, no one bothered to call me down when they realized I was not there. U guys even cheered when I called Christina. That sounded very irony to me.it is like telling me, hey wong jia yi, people are cheering because u are not there.. oh gosh. It hurts a lot. I didn’t get an explanation for not calling me down. Well, I did received I supposed. U guys said u contact one another through msn, and I didn’t use msn so I didn’t receive any information.. alright then. Another said. “ I don’t know. Most of us ask for the details.!” K. fine, it’s my fault for not asking u guys for information, that’s why I deserved to be left at home why u guys can jolly well forget about me and went roller blading. I even planned what to do with u guys at the park. Well, to think I am down here asking for the job details for u guys. No one bother to say thank you or wad, cause u guys took it for granted. Well, perhaps I should also do the same. U all come and ask for details, not the other way round. I heard that u all sense my absence, but no one care to call me down to meet u guys asap. SO CALLED FRIENDS? I call u guys out everytime I go out. Fine. It shall be the last time then, u know how disappointed I get in the end? Harm is caused, pain is inflicted, damage is there. My heart hurts like a million of needles piercing through it. Now I understand my importance in u ppl heart. I meant nothing at all, my words hold no weight, I could do do away w/o with. And U CLAIMED THAT I KNEW THE DETAILS OF THE CYCLING ON MON. OH , I KNEW NUTS ABOUT IT. And since u took it that I knew the details about it and yet I wasn’t present, why could ‘t u just call me and clarify with me? It hurt me a lot to hear that u all meet a t 11am, but it was only until 1 pm I knew u guys went cycling, between these 2 hours, did I flash through any of ur mind? I even promised zhou dao some time back that we would hold the cycling on the weekends so he could join us, however it does not matter anymore, cos I was left at home and ignorant of everything.
我用真心交朋友，不过，最后换来的却是永无止境的伤痛与悲哀，并带来一些让人心灰意冷的事实。算了吧，就当这一次是一个教训。 从此以后不再用真心交朋友，否则我的心将因为一次又一次的伤害而封闭起来。
Thank god for xinrui, for always being there for me. Lending me an listening ear. How could I managed to survive in this world w/o u?
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