14.4.07
haven been updating my blog lately...i was trying to brace myself up again.. syf is over, had a silver, was quite disappointed lah..
on thursday itself, i woke up at 5.20am to meet the others for breakfast at plaza.. wooh~!! last band practice breakfast.. went to music room for band practice.. i went to look for ms neo and i cried when i see her.. couldn't help it, just feel very bu she.. was quite anxious lah... the minute i stepped on the hall, i feel that time just passed very quickly.. the hardwork we put in are all over in just a few minutes.. as for sunrise i had many bars of rest, i begun to look around for judges, seniors, and mr lun... i saw mr lun baton shaking.. and he claimed that he wasn't nervous.. den after that, mr lun cried, he saw we matured alot.. i cried instantly.. and i just continued to cry lah.. Oh yea, i hugged mr lun lor!!! his shoulder damn broad...and i lau my head on his broad broad shoulder
band had an silver.. sec4s didn't cheer.. was disappointed lah.. wanting to hear the word gold..aiya, what happened had happened..
was crying and crying.. i even covered myself with blazer and continued to cry in the bus.i told mdm yeo that i regretted skipping band for ssp..
mr lun called at night.. we weren't unhappy with the results, just painly disappointed. i cried also due to the emptiness in my heart.. cried again on the phone, emoing again
the feeling of emptiness in my heart is overwhelming.. but i will learn how to carry life with it
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