the sense of loneliness amplifies when i'm in a crowd. the more i try to be happy, the sadder i am. the more i try to blend in, the more isolated i am. the more i love, the more pain i get...
ytd was one of those nites again.. having the feeling that nobody wan to talk to me. .a lot has been going on in my mind when i was studying. I just cannot concentrate..I dunno why i am feeling like tt.. this had been going on for many nights...
Like my title of this blog : Lost In This World; Leave Me Alone.. i am seriously lost in this world..leave me alone as i need no pity, need no one to be sad for me...
What I can do now is to, numb myself with work to do...tire myself out.. fall asleep once i hit the bed....
Let me die by myself and rot w/o grieve.. disappear w/o a trace.